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wazzup ya'll...
ntah la..lama juga aku tak balik malaysia ni..last aku balik time januari..
rindunya aku ngan lahad datu ni..adui..ndak boleh ku terangkan dengat kata2 biasa..
sedih juga la..tak pernah sehari pun yang berlalu tanpa ku terbayangkan kampung halaman tercinta..aduh syahdunya..haha..sekarang pun aku tengah layan lagu si joe flizzow ni.tak clear sangat,tapi cam dia nyanyi pasal cintanya yang tertinggal ntah di mana..tak clear pula,sial,apa la ku download ni..

peduli la tu..aku rindu juga dgn kawan2 aku..si boi yg merangkumi sanjay,sufri,zahrin..dan si ann rachel..Gila,mau dekat setahun suda ni ku ndak bersua dengar dorang..punya main lama..ada dulu berjanji konon kami,kalau kami ada anak suda,biarlah anak2 kami pun beriang ria melepak bersama..haha,dasar bapak dorang la tu..macam batman,keluar rumah malam2 lepak sampai subuh..pastu tidur sampai tengah hari..bestnya..tapi tak boleh ku nafikan la..aku rindu melepak sama anggota2 tersayang ku..trip gi sandakan tu paling semat.ambik ja kreta,pungut kawan2 aku,pastu direct pi sandakan..syoknya la ba..ndada masalah..

haha...hmm kononya lahad datu ni giat membangun suda..dua suda kfc nya..uish..tapi bodoh,ayam di kfcnya cam saiz burung pipit ja..kecil..mak aihh..patutlah populasi burung pipit kian menurun ni suda.mesti jabatan burung(ada ka juga jabatan sebegini rupa?,haha bodo la kamu kalau percaya) termangu2 cam aku..kalau aku la kan,bagus lagi dorang buka mcdonalds..tawau ngan sandakan pun ndak da..ini pula pi buka kfc,pilak ja suka sama kfc tu...bukan sedap betul pun..buang duit ja..satu lagi aku ndak suka pasal kfc ni kan,terlampau besar cermin dorang ni..sampai orang yg lalu-lalang di luar pun keseronokan tengok ko telan ayam sama kunyah tulang-temulang.malas aku.mesti dalam fikiran dorang" ui lagaknya juga ni budak,sudah2lah makan tu"..haha..sama juga ceritanya sama marrybrown yg dekat pasar tu.aku benci sebab ramai pilak tertenggek dekat cermin tu.kalau dorang diam2 ndapalah..ini pula di tekan2 muka dorang pi cermin tu,baru buat muka bodo2..kalau ndak pun dorang pi hembus nafas bangkai dorang pi cermin tu,baru lukis2 ntah apa.cam sial..bestnya la ba ld kalau ndada pilak..mau ja ku lempar tu sos cili sama dorang..hmm

Ntah bila lagi la ku balik..sampai hati lahad datu ni membangun tanpa ku..haha..ui jangan kamu, 15 tahun suda aku jadi penghuninya..saaaaaaayaaaang lahad datu..

kawan2 aku ni pun ntah kemana dah membawa diri.masih ok ka dorang ni..harap2 sihat walafiat seadanya la dorang tu..kelmarin aku terima berita sedih tahap jibeng.tu,anak tauke kedai jeans di bawah klinik mak aku meninggal dunia dlm kemalangan jalan raya...aku kenal tu orang..baik juga..slalu bagi aku diskaun kalau pi kedainya..kecewanya aku dengar..viosnya remuk jadi besi buruk..aku rasa dia langgar lori bah tu..kononya ndak boleh di kenalpasti suda keretanya..mendiang kemalangan di jalan silam..mesti dekat Pga tu..jalanya lurus2 situ..kecian..semoga mendiang dicucuri rahmatNya..

anyway,tu ja la blog ku utk kali ni..kalau ada apa2 aku tambah ja lain kali..ok bukan tambah la,aku buat blog baru ja lain kali..

"Betapa ku rindukan mereka2 yang menyerikan hidup ku,tiadalah aku tanpa mereka.segala perit jerih dan susah payah kita harungi bersama..sehingga nyawa dikandung badan,sehingga itulah kamu tetap di hati"

My daily rant's

well hello again...i ran out of ideas for my blog..but it's ok,i have some now
I had exams these past 2 weeks..*sigh*..it was crazily crazy..thats like crazy to the power of two..i've never done so much studying in my life ever..It was do or die for this exams..not passing meant a certain doom for me,cuz then i wont be eligible to sit for my externals a.k.a finals,thus having to repeat and staying six months back while all my friends are making merryment together in 2nd year..but all's well,ends well.I did ok.finals start on june 29th..*Gulp*..And i don't know if i'll be going back to sweet ol malaysia,or my love sabah to be exact,cuz ma's planin on booking my tickets to the land down under..so if my exams get over in the intended time,then ill be heading to australia and not malaysia..sigh.a bittersweet feeling if u ask me..But if i dont get to go,i guess i'll have to take a raincheck on that trip..hehe,maybe change it to somewhere else..let's see what the outcome is..I got exams to worry about 1st.

Anyway,i wanted to rant more about the indians here...One thing i've noticed in my endless crusade in finding faults with them is,they are NOT at all susceptible to change..They can't and will not adapt at any cost..like mindless neanderthals stuck in the primordial ooze.. single celled prokaryotes have better ability to adapt than these people here..

Like for instance,i always carry my pail to the washroom.*dont ask me why*..i just do..even if im just washing my face,i carry it along..So it really get's on the nerves of people in the hostel..Time to time again they ask me,why do i have to carry my whole pail..do i need that much water to wash my face..bla bla..seriously,what's it to them??..can't they mind their own business?..seriously man..I dont ask them why they don't carry soap when they take a dump do i?..no matter how disgusting it is..i dont get into their face..i couldnt be bothered..but they just cant take change.

And another thing right,people here are pigs..filthy swines!..they bathe once a day..see it's ok if u bathe once a day i guess in november-january..because trust me,the weather is freezing..and u dont sweat alot during that time.but i can't do that whole bathing once a day thing even during the cold season..i just cant..
but the thing is,it's already going to be june and it's BOILING!!..it's mind blowing to even step out,you'd disintegrate in the heat..trust me it's that bad..but these pigs!,they still practice their once a day bathe regime..They only bathe in the mornings,and the whole day they will be up and about doing whatever they do,and in the evenings they'll play that stupidass game, cricket and get sweaty and crap..and still,they don't bathe!..it doesnt strike them that they smell like death..It's gross..some people here smell like livestock when u walk past them.On many occasions i had to supress my gag reflex.It's really insensitive of them if u ask me..But they will never learn,and they got the cheek to look at me funny when i tell them i bathe 2-3 times a day..As i said,they can't and will not change..

so yeah,i mean..that's all i can say for now about these saps..But each day i learn new ways of despising their guts..and i do it well..stay tuned though..more is yet to come..
smell ya'll later losers!!...

Thing's that make me go,"damn god hates me".

1. yesterday the lecturer yelled at me for not answering some questions

2.In pizza hut,whn i tried to take my pizza,my pizza fell over,crashin toppings first onto the table

3.For my second slice,i drenched it with tomato ketchup by accident

4.My drink had some kinda leaf in it..

5.i tripped on the way out.

6.Manchester united,the team that i worship lost 2-0 to stankin barcelona,
shit!!..i was so heartbroken, i have work to do and an exam to study for and here i am writing my blog..priorities priorities..tsk tsk..

8.I know im going to get screwed in viva's tomorrow..

9.i got to think of excuses now itself..

10.i shoudl seriously start now..

11.ok bye..

The Battle.

well nothing much happened,as always...Today when all us guys were sulking(due to poor performance in exams) on the 3rd floor of our biochemistry department..
something magical happened..something that,for that fleeting moment,lifted our moods,albeit just a little..but still lifted our mood and made us forget of all the worries the world had in store for us..

so yeah..we were all sad and crap..when this magical moment or incident happened..
suddenly,in the corner of my eyes,something on the balcony ledge caught my attention..
This blue wasp and this cockroach were locked in a battle,of death!..It was amazing
and disgusting..but all us self proclaimed entomologists were pretty sure the wasp was trying to lay eggs in the cockroach..But the cockroach was not about to give up..but, damn the wasp was strong.
it had the roach in a headlock and all.

This ongoing battle had us guys mesmerized..All of us didn't squeak and watched intently the outcome of the battle...They were all over each other..and just as battle got more heated..both insects unaware that they were too close to the edge,kept on pummeling each others gut's out,until the ledge came to and end..and so did our brief moment of mystified silence..
Both insects tumbled 3 stories down to their doom..that ended their battle once in for all.
But never will we forget the great battle of 09,when the wasp met the roach..

A nice song i found

Maaf, ku telah menyakitimu,
Ku telah kecewakanmu
Bahkan ku sia-siakan hidupku,
Dan kubawa kau seperti diriku


Walau hati ini t'rus menangis
Menahan kesakitan ini
Tapi ku lakukan semua demi cinta


Akhirnya juga harus ku relakan kehilangan cinta sejatiku
Segalanya t'lah ku berikan
Juga semua kekuranganku


Jika memang ini yang terbaik
Untuk diriku dan dirinya
Kan ku t'rima semua demi cinta


Jujur, aku tak kuasa,
Saat terakhir ku genggam tanganmu
Namun yang pasti terjadi,
Kita mungkin tak bersama lagi
Bila nanti esok hari
Ku temukan dirimu bahagia
Ijinkan aku titipkan kisah cinta kita selamanya

Bless our bread and butter for others have none

See this picture?..what does it tell you?.a million stories it holds..
It's a silent cry of a child and an entire nation..a powerful image to leave one dumbfounded about the atrocities happening far far away from home
..
I could not imagine how hungry this child was at this point.
you see,this picture was taken during the sudan famine in 94..This child was so hungry,it could barely stand..It could not summon even the most minute of energy to lift itself up..and yet,it was crawling to the nearest UN food camp located 2 kilometers away..see that vulture?..yeah,it knew the child was about to breathe it's last,and it's just waiting for it to die,so it could have it's fill..
And just for your information,the photographer who took this snap committed suicide 3 months later due to horror he had to see in sudan and partly due to his financial problems.
In a note he left behind,it read; "I am depressed ... without phone ... money for rent ... money for child support ... money for debts ... money!!! ... I am haunted by the vivid memories of killings and corpses and anger and pain ... of starving or wounded children, of trigger-happy madmen, often police, of killer executioners...I have gone to join ken if I am that lucky."
imagine the impact it had on him..Im not ashamed to say i cried a silent cry that day when i saw this picture..It was too moving.no child or anyone for that matter should be subjected to this kind of predicament..I had to close my eyes,take in a deep deep breath and recompose myself.It struck a chord deep down in me..And i hoped,no one is,or will be subjected ever again to that madness that happened in sudan in 94.

so yeah,the next time you're served something that doesnt really apease you,and you're about to voice out your displesure,please do take a second to recall this haunting image..its not much to ask, for you to be thankful you have a proper meal to eat..Because others may not be so lucky..

The fate of the Child was never known..But im guessing,it ended there..

Rambles of the heart

It feels like one of those days...Like a beaten old dog he sits..reminiscing bout the good old times when things were
always meant to be..even the smallest most insignificant things..He was at peace..he was home..
memories so distant..he's petrifed of forgetting them..because it's all he has left..stuck at the back of his mind..like
moss to a stone..The pictures bring back fond memories of the happier times..the good times.He never realised,the most recent picture was dated 2 years back.
He feels all alone..like a wounded soldier on the brink of death..he leans back on his chair.takes a deep breath and closes his eyes...He doesnt want to be here.
It all so alien to him..he hates the same old routine..he hates how fake people are..like snakes in the grass..he misses people from back home..

the sights and the sounds too..this unforgiving land is so treacherous.one wrong step and you go plunging to the jagged rocks below..and at each step,you have to be very vary of strangers,some are going to be your friends,that you'd treasure forever
others not so much..you have to be one step ahead to come out alive..not everyone is trustworthy..some so conceited and fake.others are just deluded fools..barging through life with false pride and confidence.it'll get them nowhere,
that much he knows..others stay muted,but a thousand stories they hold,a thousand sights they've seen..

in a life full of ambiguity.smart choice of companionship is essential..stay away from those who you need too.dont put your eggs in one basket for those who wont stay long,and give your life to those who'd give theirs for you.

When the internet's good..

well it's been awhile since i blogged anything..blame my imbicile of an internet guy..i hope you read this ramesh u pig!,i hope u get hookworms.
so yeah..I guess it should be fine for now..Anyways not much happened..Harjee's sister gave birth to a baby boy yesterday (30/4/09)..Oh a miracle of life i must add..
you'd feel the same way too if ya'll know how a life is formed from only a few cells..breathtaking..so yeah,harjee took all of us out to this fancy establishment for dinner.

ok before that,the place we went was called UB city..its like the disgustingly rich part of bangalore..you'd only go there if you're confident of your account and wallet size..
we poor pheasents dont go there...often.i mean its really pointless..we're not even earning yet..we just act cool with daddy's dough.so its not really worth it wasting it there..

But yeah,harjee's loaded and it was a reason to celebrate though.i mean u only have your first born once right..so what the heck..
This place was called sunny's..all of us(consisting of arun,tarun,lakshmi,harjee,pooja and i) were there around 8 pm..the girls seem well versed with the fine dining experience..the guys,well not that much..we were in awe.
we tried our level best to not make fools of ourselves..But it was fun..the bill came up to 4350 rps.thats about Rm 400..But i do think,the meal beffits the price..well worth it.

you know how some places,the prices are exorbitant but the food's shit..well this place got an A.from all of us.
so yeah,after that we finishd at around 10 pm..one more thing i got to tell you folks out there,if at all you plan to visit india.at night auto-rickshaw drivers go crazy with their fares.

it really leaves one awestruck to see them have the balls to charge so much.for example,for a 60 ruppee ride,the jackass wanted 200..
seriously what do they take us for..we just laugh at their faces and leave,amid their desperate calls and pleas for a fast buck..
so anyhow,tarun,lakshmi and harjee headed over to harjee's apartment..and arun and i were suppose to follow in a different auto..
when we reached our college which was nearby harjee's place,arun left for his house because he was too tired..
so i walked the rest of the way to harj's house..they got hold of the movie,superbad..it was hilarious..
it got over at 1.30 ish..so tarun and i decided to walk back to his place.about 15 mins away..
and thats that..how our classy night ended..
smell ya'll later....