An ensemble of characters

Solemnly i sit..I've met who i needed to meet.kept those who mattered close to heart..A decrepit mind..gnawed on by the sands of time..sits listlessly.too scared to move.When times change,but a bruised heart stays the same..pinning for it's mate,who set sail,on an endless voyage on the sea of Hope.on a rickety ship of love..time and time again,battered by the waves of guilt,sucked in by a Whirlpool of neglect...To whom shall i matter most,when i dip my legs,in this stream of hate?..Who will throw me a lifeline,when I'm immersed in this river of detestation?.
Every cloud has it's silver lining.,but no cloud ever shines in a thunderstorm.And when u get caught in one.there won't be any silver lining.Just an alone you,soaked to the bone..teeth chattering,body shivering..

why do people love,when it hurts them so..a torture one undergoes,for a lifetime of happiness?,one that is never certain for that matter...when everything seems so perfectly clear,and it's an arm's reach away,why does it still seem hazy,?why does it still escape you?,and one hesitates...but when once captured,it'll leave one holding her breath,scared of letting it go..for that..i shall never know why..