Dear all concerned,
You guys are amazing friends..and i keep ya'll close to heart.But sometimes,things get to me..I'm happy for ya'll for finding your other half's,oh trust me really i am..after being unlucky for so long.ya'll are finally happy..But it gets to me,when you think I'm not happy being the way i am.unattached..I'm doing just fine..It gets to me when you try to hook me up with people without me even knowing..cuz i am really happy..I understand that love isn't everything..and it's certainly not the only thing...i know your intentions are good..but please don't make me feel like I'm loosing out on something..cuz I'm not..Each time ya'll ask me whens my turn,i really2 can't answer that ,cuz i don't know or want to care about it for now..it gets to me,when you think I'm too choosy or not trying hard enough..yes i am choosy.because i wanna make sure when i finally do get attached,I'd be able to look at her every single day thinking how lucky i am,and not feel like i had to settle to other people's demands.I would want to give her the world,rather than regret every single hasty decision i made just to be with her..and yes,i agree I'm not trying hard enough.because there are other things in life,that need my immediate attention too..like studies..so no,i don't go out every chance i get to look for a soul mate.if that's wrong,well boo me...
It gets to me when you judge without knowing why or the reason i do what i do..trust me,i am happy..please don't feel sorry for me,or the need to find me someone.heck,i'd be even sadder if that ever happens..I trust my abilities..if i never get anyone,that's ok..I'll be fine..they say only dead fish go with the flow,but sometimes going with the flow is the only way you'll get to see what lies downstream..
and it gets to me when random people get attracted to facebook pictures..dammit,it's a facebook picture..it's supposed to be nice..You'd be dumber than a sack of bricks to be attracted to what you see on facebook..it isn't always as it seems..And I'm certainly not always as i seem..You can make your conclusions only after seeing me in real life.you may be disappointed,you may actually think I'm cool..but then again,that only depends if you've actually seen me in real life..
I had made past mistakes..some i wish i could turn back the hands of time to rectify.. the only good that has come out of all that,is i know that I've become a better person..one who would have reciprocal respect and understanding for someone who'd have the same for me...
Also,it gets to me when you undermine my confidence,by saying things like i don't even bother,and how perfect my life with love in it would be.sorry, but think it's garbage..if ya'll are happy,do please keep that feeling to yourselves,I'll be happy for ya'll really!..All I'm doing is waiting for that special someone..and i don't really wanna dwell on it all the time,i don't feel the need to speak about it.nor think about it.i think it's pointless beating yourself over something that cannot be controlled...yes i have liked someone.that i admit..and of course,I'd want to be able to love and be loved..But i rather not think about it.cuz the circumstances aren't really favouring me at this point of time.or i guess,at all points of time.lol....But as i said,it's annoying when you say the things you do..Love can wait..Yes I'm terrified of heartbreak,.and even more terrified of breaking a heart.Even though I've sort of built this shield around me,and replaced my heart and feelings with gears and wires( lol dramatic!)...all those are slowly starting to crumble and give way.cuz i have not lost all faith in things like love just yet.i believe it's out there somewhere over the horizon.and maybe one day,when i do muster the energy to go searching.it'll be looking for me too...:)..hopefully..
So all,i really don't mind waiting..please do enjoy your time..i do thank ya'll for just taking a moment to care..My thoughts are not only for me,but for all who feel the same way.it's not the end of the world,trust me..there are better things in store..I heard this song once with this sentence"Good things might come to those who wait
Not to those who wait to late"..well i thought,how will one ever know,when exactly late is?.. :)...have a good day ya'll..
You guys are amazing friends..and i keep ya'll close to heart.But sometimes,things get to me..I'm happy for ya'll for finding your other half's,oh trust me really i am..after being unlucky for so long.ya'll are finally happy..But it gets to me,when you think I'm not happy being the way i am.unattached..I'm doing just fine..It gets to me when you try to hook me up with people without me even knowing..cuz i am really happy..I understand that love isn't everything..and it's certainly not the only thing...i know your intentions are good..but please don't make me feel like I'm loosing out on something..cuz I'm not..Each time ya'll ask me whens my turn,i really2 can't answer that ,cuz i don't know or want to care about it for now..it gets to me,when you think I'm too choosy or not trying hard enough..yes i am choosy.because i wanna make sure when i finally do get attached,I'd be able to look at her every single day thinking how lucky i am,and not feel like i had to settle to other people's demands.I would want to give her the world,rather than regret every single hasty decision i made just to be with her..and yes,i agree I'm not trying hard enough.because there are other things in life,that need my immediate attention too..like studies..so no,i don't go out every chance i get to look for a soul mate.if that's wrong,well boo me...
It gets to me when you judge without knowing why or the reason i do what i do..trust me,i am happy..please don't feel sorry for me,or the need to find me someone.heck,i'd be even sadder if that ever happens..I trust my abilities..if i never get anyone,that's ok..I'll be fine..they say only dead fish go with the flow,but sometimes going with the flow is the only way you'll get to see what lies downstream..
and it gets to me when random people get attracted to facebook pictures..dammit,it's a facebook picture..it's supposed to be nice..You'd be dumber than a sack of bricks to be attracted to what you see on facebook..it isn't always as it seems..And I'm certainly not always as i seem..You can make your conclusions only after seeing me in real life.you may be disappointed,you may actually think I'm cool..but then again,that only depends if you've actually seen me in real life..
I had made past mistakes..some i wish i could turn back the hands of time to rectify.. the only good that has come out of all that,is i know that I've become a better person..one who would have reciprocal respect and understanding for someone who'd have the same for me...
Also,it gets to me when you undermine my confidence,by saying things like i don't even bother,and how perfect my life with love in it would be.sorry, but think it's garbage..if ya'll are happy,do please keep that feeling to yourselves,I'll be happy for ya'll really!..All I'm doing is waiting for that special someone..and i don't really wanna dwell on it all the time,i don't feel the need to speak about it.nor think about it.i think it's pointless beating yourself over something that cannot be controlled...yes i have liked someone.that i admit..and of course,I'd want to be able to love and be loved..But i rather not think about it.cuz the circumstances aren't really favouring me at this point of time.or i guess,at all points of time.lol....But as i said,it's annoying when you say the things you do..Love can wait..Yes I'm terrified of heartbreak,.and even more terrified of breaking a heart.Even though I've sort of built this shield around me,and replaced my heart and feelings with gears and wires( lol dramatic!)...all those are slowly starting to crumble and give way.cuz i have not lost all faith in things like love just yet.i believe it's out there somewhere over the horizon.and maybe one day,when i do muster the energy to go searching.it'll be looking for me too...:)..hopefully..
So all,i really don't mind waiting..please do enjoy your time..i do thank ya'll for just taking a moment to care..My thoughts are not only for me,but for all who feel the same way.it's not the end of the world,trust me..there are better things in store..I heard this song once with this sentence"Good things might come to those who wait
Not to those who wait to late"..well i thought,how will one ever know,when exactly late is?.. :)...have a good day ya'll..
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